I'm sitting here, watching the National Championship Game between Alabama and Notre Dame, trying to decide which team Tom would be cheering for. First of all, he wouldn't be cheering - he watches silently while I "comment" on touchdowns and bad plays. He would usually pull for the SEC team, but growing up a good Catholic boy with lots of relatives that are Notre Dame fans, he might pull for them too! He would want to be watching a good game. So far, it's a little lopsided!
It was good to get back to Church and Sunday School yesterday. I wasn't sure how it would feel to walk in again but it was comforting. I did not cry at all except when we said the Lord's Prayer. Tom and I said that together for the last time Friday night before I left the hospital.
I was caught off-guard today. I was looking for a file on my computer and noticed that it was dated 12/21/12 - the day before Tom died. I just hung my head and cried - knowing that on that day, I had no idea what was going to happen - still hoping and praying and promising Tom that he was going to get to UAB. Tom's illness taught me to be much stronger than I could have ever imagined but that just took my breath away. I really don't want that to happen at work or any public place.
Opening the mail has been emotional too - each day I receive several sympathy cards and notes that are just so thoughful and comforting. It is hard to explain but I can't believe they are addressed to me.
Debbie and Meagan are coming to visit this weekend. I am really looking forward to it. I also have a trip planned to visit family in Arizona. I know I've mentioned it before (probably in the last post) but I will say it again and again . . . I always told Tom if he ever left me, I was keeping the family. They are keeping me too - I am so blessed and thankful!!
Otherwise, the puppies and I are doing alright. I am just beginning to handle the "business" stuff, it is not too fun. I am learning that you need to get on it but it is really hard when the pain is so fresh.
Thanks to you all for keeping Cathy, Debbie, Tom's dad & family, and me in your prayers. I ask that you remember our extended family of aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, cousins, and in-laws who are mourning as well.
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